my train of thoughts

cigarette_girl

The other day I went to Gilmore (and I know this is Gilmore because LRT 2 said so) and applied for my international driver's license.  A totally pointless thing to do I've been told, as MY philippine license is valid in the US for up to six months anyway.  BUT person-in-charge says I have to get one, so meh.

The whole thing was over pretty quick, so it really wasn't so bad.  Except for the fact that you hafta pay Php1,800 for the whole processing.  Potential shopping money lost!  There were only two windows to work on.  First window is where you submit your shit.  Second window is where you claim and pay for your license.

Ta-da!  My license!

which is better: hot pink hair, or as a locoroco?

*photos edited by teh boyfie <3

aisheru

i want to get married now.

dahil nabasa ko ang entry ni ate leslie, naalala ko to.

i dont know but thats how i feel this days. maybe becaue i am so sad dahil sa nangyayari sakin except of getting this job. naninibago lang talaga ko kaya nahihirapan ako, kahit na wala pa naman akong task na hindi ko kaya. nakakalungkot malayo sa mga taong nagpapasaya sayo. nakakalungkot isipin na hindi niyo kaya magkita. basta nakakalungkot, nakakaiyak, nakakasakit sa lalamunan.

maybe kaya ko naramdaman na gusto ko ng magpakasal dahil sa gusto ko na siya makasama, siguro nga dahil natatakot ako sa buhay, na parang gusto kong tumakas. pero pinipigilan ko magpadala sa mga naiisip ko. nagpapakatatag ako. mahirap pero siguro magiging ok din ang lahat. ang gusto ko lang, sa kabila ng mga bagong hamon sa akin, at the end of the day makasama ko man lang yung taong nagpapawala ng takot at pagod ko. hay.. nakakainis ako. sobra! hindi ko kasi alam bakit nararamdaman ko to, kung bakit nahihirapan ako, kung bakit hindi ko makontrol! anong gagawin ko?

batang isip pa ba ko? immature? why cant i stand alone? i know naman na i can get used to this. it just takes time.

sabi nga sa entry ni ate lesllie na sinabi ng kanyang husband to be, mahirap maging mhirap. kaya dapat pag nagpakasal everything is in right place. at isa pa, bata pa kami para sa bagay na ito. its a weird feeling. im longing for him kasi talaga. hay..

aisheru

this year, theres a lot of things that had changed in my life. i thought of it as a better one. i felt so lucky knowing that im already out of the hell. out of the job who really made me down last year. And now i have a better job, a way better than the last. i know my former co-workers would feel jealous once they hear this update because i know we all want to escape to it. now, i am here happy as i can be...

but theres a big part of me crying. afraid and nervous of the new priorities and responsibilities that im having. i admit im so shock of how big this company is and that is why a feel so insecure and not so sure about my capabilitis to perform better here. i am afraid i might realize im not so good in this field. i feel this, maybe because im still in the adjustment period of my life. maybe because i dont know anyone here. maybe because im not used to this world. a very different world than the last ive lived in for years. maybe few weeks from now, i can get use to what i should be doing. maybe that time i am not afraid and nervous anymore. different nationalities and high profiled persons are around me.

plus,

the fact that i know ill miss my honey so much for the next days on my life. this place is too far to him, and even too far for my parents and younger brothers. plus my schedule is conflict to my honeys schedule. no way to meet up.. =( i always wanna cry. cant concentrate. feel so homesick. that at every end of the day i feel like i want to give up. i dont know why i feel this. i want to be with him always. but how will i do it? =(

so sad, so down.. hope this wouldnt take long. hope i can get through this as soon as possible. i dont wanna suffer because of this feeling. a very weird feeling. =(

its been a week now. but i miss the so badly.

it feels like it is too long.. 

i realized,

i am just so weak.

Life is not without…

a batter’s strike
a runner’s sprain
a skater on her butt
a boxer being knocked

a basketball without a foul
a chess without a check
missing the ninth ball
and balls out of play

Life is not without… falling on your face and getting some 'kicks' in the ass... get up, strike back... it's worth winning after falling flat.

The next lap is yours, claim it. Just believe!

***

You never experienced life fully until you commit mistakes, but you have never lived life well if you don’t learn from them.
Enjoy life; trace its twists and turns.
It’s not always how you want it, or in order you planned, but the juice is always worth the squeeze.
The loops wouldn’t be always the way you expected, but in time, you’ll find some of the things you wanted did not stay to give way for the better things.
A lot like love. You haven’t completely experienced it until you break your heart. .. but you can’t make any relationship work until you learn.
Love. Love until it hurts, love until nothing is left.
But if it’s not worth the tears, leave.
Because there’s someone out there you always deserve.

aisheru

im already working here. but im still sad. because theres no other way to meet my love ones. and my honey even once a week. =( how will i adjust with this?

“I was born under unusual circumstances.”

And so begins “The Curious Case of Benjamin Button,” adapted from the 1920s story by F. Scott Fitzgerald about a man who is born in his eighties and ages backwards: A man, like any of us, who is unable to stop time. From New Orleans at the end of World War I in 1918, into the 21st century, on a journey as unusual as any man’s life can be, the film tells the grand tale of a not so ordinary man and the people and places he discovers along the way, the loves he finds and loses, the joys of life and the sadness of death, and what lasts beyond time.

Paramount Pictures and Warner Bros. Pictures Present A Kennedy/Marshall Production A David Fincher Film, “The Curious Case of Benjamin Button,” starring Brad Pitt, Cate Blanchett, Taraji P. Henson, Julia Ormond, Jason Flemyng, Elias Koteas and Tilda Swinton. The film is directed by David Fincher. The screenplay is by Eric Roth, with screen story by Eric Roth and Robin Swicord, based on the short story by F. Scott Fitzgerald. The producers are Kathleen Kennedy, Frank Marshall and Ceán Chaffin.  The behind-the-scenes team is led by director of photography Claudio Miranda, production designer Donald Graham Burt, editors Kirk Baxter and Angus Wall, and costume designer Jacqueline West. The music is by Alexandre Desplat.

I was one of the lucky people who got invites from Az to get tickets for the advance screening of The Curious Case of Benjamin Button.

Benjamin Button's many love

The movie has the same director as that of Se7en and Fight Club, and it's surprising how this movie seems to be their complete opposite.  It was full of picturesque sceneries, relaxing colors of yellows and browns, and beautiful people.  While there were no memorable lines to remember, the shots seemed to be perfect.  It was a story about Benjamin's life, how he dealt with growing backwards, and more specifically how other people in his life dealt with it.  It would be interesting to know how we deal with growing old, and dying.  The movie took its own sweet time showing these, almost three hours actually.

Lookie! It's Dakota Fanning's sister!

So now I have stupid question: did the Button family chose button-making as a family business because their last name is Button, or did they chose Button as a family name cos they want to make buttons?

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princesscha

pagbigyan na ko sa title, blog ko naman to. kaya sa commenter ko na itago natin sa pangalang guest, wag mo ng kwestiyonin bakit ako may mga fans, okay? sige, update lang bago maubos ang load ng internet namin (oo na! jologs ang internet namin dito, de metro! buti pa sa mindoro unlimited. ewan nga ba bakit prepaid pa pinili namin, ahahahaha!)

so ayun nga, unang araw kanina ng career ko. hindi ko pa siya masasabing trabaho kasi baka maudlot pa. alam mo naman, pag bino-broadcast ko biglang di natutuloy. clue kung ano to? may pag-asang pumayat ako dito at linggo linggo kailangan kong magpasalin ng dugo sa kaka-nosebleed. yun na yun! kanina kasi yung first day ng training. sana naman this time ma-career ko na to? na-frustrate ako nung una kong try eh, hahahaha! ma-break ko naman sana yung record kong 2 months, gawin man lang nilang 2 months at 1 day. joke lang! (baka may kokontra na naman!!) e bakit ko ba naisip i-career to? dahil sa mga sumusunod na dahilan:

1. walking distance lang mula sa bahay ko. ibig sabihin hindi ko na kailangang gumising ng maaga para makapagpakitang-gilas sa attendance, at hindi ko na kailangang makipag-siksikan sa MRT! good news di ba?

2. hindi ko kailangang mag-business attire. e allergic nga ako sa pormalan di ba?

3. may pag-asang pumayat ako dito. katulad ng nabanggit ko kanina. pero siyempre nasa akin pa din no? basta, papayat ako dito!!

4. may nakita akong okay na ka-buddy dito: babae, hindi nag-iinom, hindi nagyoyosi, maganda, ka-sense of humor ko. yun nga lang, mas bata sa kin kaya todo ate ang tawag sa kin, pero okay lang. napansin ko din kasi lahat ng kaibigan ko ngayon mas bata sa kin. hindi na ata nag-improve ang maturity ko. at isa pang negative sa friend ko na to, mukhang mapapaaway kasi sa kataklesahan, ahahahaha!

ngayon, kung papalpak pa din ako dito isa lang ibig sabihin nun: boplaks ang communication skills ko, ahahahaha! pero hindi man ako pumasa dito, may plan B pa naman. wish me luck! tumatanggap din ako ng prayers!